My Dad

I wanted to write this last week, but it would have been too hard considering I had been training for my fight. My father passed away from cancer ONE WEEK before my fight. I know a lot of people who know me (like friends and family) read this and they find great info. if they've not been able to talk to me personally. A lot of my friends have no idea because it's been too hard to talk about. I wanted to wait till after my fight so that it would be "easier" for me.

I still decided to fight and I know I made the right decision. It was a very hard one, but I felt my dad would have wanted me to be happy and would have wanted me not to let all that hard training go to waste! Him and my sister were my biggest fans. My father passed two years to the month after my sister had died in a car accident. I think he might have died from a broken heart. I miss both of them dearly, but now they are together and watching over me :) Maybe they stopped me from sliding completely OFF the judges table LOL

It seems so surreal and you just sometime don't get how life is so crazy. But that IS life and life can be so sad but so beautiful too. My fight did not turn out how I would have liked and maybe that is for a reason, although I have no idea what is is right now. I tried to be as mentally prepared for this fight as I could, and I felt I was, considering what happened. I just hope I made my dad and my sister proud and that they know I am OK :) I will continue on and make you guys proud every day. Love you and miss you so much and we will all meet again.